*My Crows* *My Art* *My Way*

Thursday, January 28, 2016

Hey Everyone!
I have to say thanks again! I read each and everyone of your comments over and over again. I see on this journey I'm going through, that many of you are going through it too. And, some of you have went through it and are giving me some great advice! All of you have touched my soul with what you say!

I am so fortunate to have such a special group of friends around me! And,  when I say friends, I mean that! I know so many people say, you can't really have friends over the internet. Well, I say bullshit!

Last night, I kept thinking, in order for all this change to take place, every situation that I deal with, has to change. Especially, if it is a situation, that has repeated itself.

Well, today, something else happened. A couple of little situations happened, but I kept my cool and just kept repeating to myself, Stacy, I love you. Then, a major situation happened. A situation that has happened before. It was like an out of body experience! I knew what all the words and flare ups would be. And, then it was put on me. (before, I would have yelled and argued and felt sorry for myself.) I will be honest, I wanted nothing to do with this. But, I believe everything happens for a reason, and I have promised myself, to try to do everything with as much positivity as I can in my life now. No more poor me's! So, I agreed to it.

Before I tell you anymore, I have to say, I have been seeing a lot of repetitive numbers around, like 11, 222, 333, 444, and so on. But, mostly forms of groups of 11. I've been reading about this too. Very interesting and all good.

Anyways, during this all happening, I thought ok, I will make it an excursion. Who knows what will happen. It will be a great day. I know this in my heart, because I am on the right path.

I didn't know which day, this excursion was going to take place yet. The appointment was made and I was told the date. When I heard the date, I smiled inside and said, thank you. The date is February 11th!!!!

Again, I have to say, I am proud of myself. I didn't make excuses, or played the poor me card (like another person did or what I would have done before). I have faced it head on! And, I was awarded with my February 11th date! Hurray! LOL!

There is one other thing, I am slowly working on, and once I get really on track, I will be sharing it! Well, two things, I have to stop with the nail biting! I was doing well, but then today happened! I'm taking everything one day at a time! I know everything won't change over night!

Enough about me! LOL! I have some new aceo's (2.5" x 3.5") to show you! I had a lot of fun creating these! Enjoy!

"Mummy Baby Crow"
"Roasting Marshmallows"
"Picking Flowers"
"First Kiss"
Big Hugs!!!

Monday, January 25, 2016

(long post, grab a drink!)
I'm proud of me! Last night, something was said to me (from someone close) and it was the way it was said, that wasn't nice. I took a deep breath, digested the words and just walked away. I actually went outside. I looked up into the night sky and kept repeating to myself, Stacy, I love you. I said that around 6 times and ended with, I choose to be happy.

Before, I would have came back with some not nice words and probably an argument would have started. Making me feel guilty, in which I would have probably went out to buy something, to make up, when I really did nothing wrong. Or, I would have kept everything inside of me, felt sorry for myself, cried and went and had a chocolate bar. Or, I would have worried about things and started to bite my nails!

When this happened last night, I thought, nope, things are changing! I love myself! Nothing is going to change in my life, if the same old patterns happen. When I came in from outside, I was happy! I had let go and I didn't feel guilty.

When the morning came around, the same thing was mentioned to me. This person tends to repeat things, until they feel they have got their point across. When the words came out this time, it was said, in a different way, nicer. I felt, I could say what I felt, so I did, in a good way. They still had to make their point at the end, making them feel, they were right, but I was happy inside. It was a lighter conversation. That would have never happened before. Now, you might think they still did control the conversation and the outcome, but they really didn't. I was smiling inside! I was happy.

As I said before, I truly accept the ones that are closest to me, for who they are. I am truly healed with them. I guess last night really showed that. I know this journey has just started with me and I know there will be days, that I will be pissed off, (maybe not?), but as long as I never forget to love myself, that's all that matters! The one thing, I am still very calm. Never before in my life, have I felt this way!

I did create some new aceo's! (2.5" x 3.5") I haven't painted any aceo's in over a year! It was kind of weird, because I wanted to put so many layers on the backgrounds, like how I have been doing with my larger paintings. I couldn't of course, but I think I got a good look out of them. Enjoy.


"Nesting"(I know you don't see a lot of the crow in this one, but I like how it looks like the crow is actually building the nest. That is what I was concentrating on.)
"Purple Sunset"

Thanks again, for all of you being on this journey with me!
Big Hugs!

Thursday, January 21, 2016

Hi Everyone. The sun came out! Yeh! Enjoy the new art!

Violet/Believe (Fairy Baby Crow, with little Crow Gal) (4" x 5" canvas)
Pinky/Dream (Native Fairy Baby Crow, with little Crow Gal)  (4"x 4" canvas)
Willow (Crow Gal) (8" x 10" canvas)
Maple (Crow Gal) 8" x 10" canvas)
Red Moon Lava (8" x 10" canvas) I really didn't know the name of this painting, until I was finished. I really thought it looked lava on the crow.
You all know how I have been talking about loving yourself and what I have been discovering, through my readings. Well, I started to think about my Crow Gals. Personally, I would really love to bring them to life in doll form, but that might be awhile! LOL! So, I thought, how about making tags, that people can have as ornaments. I started to paint my gals and I have to say, I am loving the way they are turning out! They are roughly 3" x 6" on strathmore acrylic paper. I used lots of paint and then finished them with strips cut from an old pair of jeans, for the hanger. I really had fun making these and I know I will be making more!
They are all named, "Be You".
On the back, they all say..................
I hope you enjoyed the new art.
To all my American friends, being hit by the bad snow storm, please take care!!!
Big Hugs!

Wednesday, January 20, 2016

Since it's another cloudy day outside, I thought I would show you the suet feeder I made.
Many of you didn't understand what I was talking about. Suet, is animal fat. Very good for the birds in the winter time. There are many recipes on the internet. You can buy suet, but I just use bacon fat. They say not to use bacon fat a lot. Maybe once or twice a year and that's what I do.

I get an empty plastic container, that I won't be using again (make sure it's clean). After I have finished cooking the bacon, I put a little in the container, then I place some sunflower seeds in. Then I put some more fat, and some peanuts in. Then another layer of fat and some more sunflower seeds. Keep going until the container is filled. Place some string in the middle and place in the freezer.

When it's frozen and it's cold outside, take it out and get some scissors. Start to cut at one edge.
At this time, just wiggle the scissors in and cut a little bit of the plastic. Watch your fingers because the cut edges will be sharp. You don't have to cut too much of the plastic off. Just a small section. Then place the container in your hand, gentle pull on the rope and it will come right out with very little damage.
Time to put it outside.
Have a great day!
Big Hugs!

Tuesday, January 19, 2016

Hey Everyone,
I've been painting up a storm! But, guess what? We have snow! LOL! We got a little bit of a melt, (one day). Now, we have been in a deep freeze for about two days and the winds have been strong. So no picture taking. As you know, I take my pictures outside! As soon as I see a break, I will run outside! LOL!

Here's a little sneak peak of what I've been up too.
I can't believe our postage rates have went up again! I hear the same is for my American friends. It is getting really crazy! For all of you that purchase things, when you see a high postage rate, do you not buy? Or do you understand? Just wondering. For me, I understand and I really have to want the item badly! LOL!

Just to let you all know, I have been doing really well! More lessons and lots more reading! The last thing I read about was control. How people control you, (over control of others). I didn't realize, people who try to control you, don't feel very good about themselves, (low self esteem). Close minded, manipulating, speaking for and over others.
And, at the other end, is lack of self control, having people control you. These people have even lower self esteem. Lack of self confidence, self respect. Feeling adrift, no purpose in life.
The third one was over control of self. The lowest of self esteems. Feeling tense and anxious. Being untrusting, fearful, avoiding spontaneity.

There were more points, but those were the main things. I have to admit, I could see myself in all of them. But, now I am working on self control. Having a high self esteem for me. Pursing my dreams and goals. Knowing and believing in my values. Accepting differences between me and others. Accepting that others, have a clear choice to chart the course of their lives. Again, there was more points, but those were the main ones.

I feel like a doctor! LOL!

Talk to you soon!

Big Hugs.

Wednesday, January 6, 2016

Hi Everyone
I want to thank you from the bottom of my heart, for all your comments on my last post! I will be printing off that page! Means the world to me what you said!

It's been a very interesting few days into the new year. I believe in signs and messages. I always ask for them and I have been getting a lot! I really started to think about, who am I? I know that sounds like a stupid question, but if you have never really been you, who are you?
This is what I have discovered about myself so far,  I am a caring, loving, down to earth, laughing out loud, peaceful, dancing, loving nature, loving crows, artist, loving stones and crystals,  a little edgy, hippie/gypsy loving clothes girl, with some fairy and witch on the side! LOL! I think that's it? LOL! I guess the experience of this all, is the fun of finding myself!

I couldn't believe when I looked back in my life, I didn't realize how much I thought, I wasn't as good as anyone else. I don't know why I've had such low self esteem! I remember back when I was like 5 years old, giving a girl one of my favourite cat broaches, for her to like me. I have always thought I had to buy things for other people or change someway, in order for someone to like me.

Well, as we all know, this is all changing! Because I am changing! Things won't change, unless you do!

"Sometimes you find yourself in the middle of nowhere. And, sometimes in the middle of nowhere, you find yourself!"

I am loving me and being me! Funny, I feel so calm and happy, but I think the calming is such a weird feeling! Never felt this way before!

I'm not afraid any more! But, I have to admit, I'm kind of anxious! Anxious to see, where my life goes!

Oh, I am happy to tell you, I went to a birthday celebration, that was at a restaurant. Well, I was laughing.  I was being me! And, the waitress asked if I wanted to stay all day, because she loved my laugh! Yeh! For the people who thought I was too loud at the party, oh well! LOL!

Big Hugs and thanks for coming on this journey with me!