*My Crows* *My Art* *My Way*

Wednesday, April 27, 2016

Hi Everyone
Still sick!!! Errrr....... But, I'm not going to complain! You have to make everyday the best you can!
I have 13 paintings started! LOL! I can't concentrate. I'm trying to clear my mind and not think about sleeping, or coughing!
But, there is one that just came to me, so I stopped all the rest. I'm calling it "La Luna". There is still much to do. I think I might paint a rose in this one too. I've never painted a rose, so this could be interesting!
Funny, at different times in your life, the things you create. I never thought a painting like this would come to me now. Who knows why,  but I do know, you have to go with the flow, because if you don't, things will start to screw up! LOL!

Big Hugs and I will be around soon to say hi! 

Friday, April 22, 2016

Hi Everyone
I just wanted to let you know, for the past 5 days, I have been really sick and it is not letting up!
The kind of sickness when your entire body aches.
Your ears are ringing.
Your eyes look like you haven't slept in a month.
Your nose looks like Rudolph.
Your neck is scratching.
Your teeth hurt.
And, watch out when you sneeze or cough! I hope you understand what I mean by that! LOL!

I will be around when I can! Miss you!

I will leave you with a  picture I took through the window. Papa Cardinal was in feeding. Sorry, not that great of a pic! (Click on it, to make it bigger.)
Take Care! Big Hugs! 

Saturday, April 16, 2016

Paint brush up, paint brush down.
Turn on computer, shut off computer.
Look outside, go outside.
Go for a drive, come home.
Garden, listen to the birds.
Look at the night sky, tummy in knots (excited knots).

I don't know what is going on? Is it because of Spring? My head, my heart, my body, are all over the place! I have to shake this off, I have to get some work done! Are any of you like this? I still have this weird calm/peaceful feeling, along with being excited and unsettled. Is there something happening in the universe I don't know about? Is the full moon close? I don't know what it is, but I keep saying, I'm Ready! Bring it on!

I did paint one of the hearts, but I don't know if I am going to keep it the way it is. Still thinking about it. I called her, "Earth".

Have a great one, whatever you're doing!
Big Hugs

Monday, April 11, 2016

Hi Everyone
Hope you're well!
I think the snow is finally gone! The rain is here now!
I've been busy with "stuff". Stuff always gets in the way! Like the dishwasher breaking! LOL!
I haven't done too much in painting. Except for these 4 wood hearts, that I finally finished sanding and doing the backgrounds.
Not sure what I am going to do with them yet?
I will leave you with some Crow Love. Enjoy.
Big Hugs

Thursday, April 7, 2016

Hi Everyone! (long post, get a drink!)
I want to thank you for your kind comments on my last post and thank you for accepting me, for who I am. I can't explain how it feels, to look at my blog and see me. I am smiling inside! "I'm not trying to be someone else or cover up anymore!"

This week, no art, but another major lesson!
Remember, at the beginning of the year, I vowed to deal with every situation different, especially ones that had been happening over and over!

Well, one thing that I have tried to deal with, kept coming up. Even though I have forgave certain people in my life and forgave myself and felt that everything was healed, for things to change, there was one thing I still needed to to!

"Truly Let Go and Trust"

This situation came up. Before, I would have yelled, got upset and went and had 4 hamburgers. Seriously! I can understand why people turn too food or alcohol or even drugs, thinking this is making them feel better! One of the reasons, why I get so upset, because damage has been done, and money had to be spent to repair things.

Well, I didn't do any of this! I kept calm, and talked normal. It didn't matter what I said, because this person, wasn't going to listen. At the end of the conversation, I even said, it doesn't matter what I say, because you are going to do it anyways, right? They said yes!

I walked away and went to my bedroom. I cried and prayed/meditated. I cried and exercised. I was in my bedroom for about 2 hours. I was damn proud of myself! I truly let go and trusted! I was thinking about the law of attraction. It's our energy that keeps stuff attached to us, even negative energy. So, with me letting go and trusting, not putting any negativity out there, I prayed everything will be alright.

The next day, the person persisted to do what they said they were going to do. I sat quietly and watched. Not to stare them down, but for my own sanity. To see if I truly let go. Not even 3 minutes into it, they said, it's not as bad as they thought. I didn't say, I told you so. That wasn't the point. I want to be in control of me, not them. The situation ended, no words were spoken and nothing had been damaged!

Yes!! Happy Dance! It was like a cloud had lifted! Not, that I don't care what this person does, of course I do, but "they" don't have control over me anymore and it feels AMAZING! I am more and more in control of my life, because I love me!! Yes!!!

Since this all happened, I have been really meditating, that I'm ready for the next chapter of my life! I really am! I've said it before, but I wasn't ready! That's why the same "crap" happened over and over again, until I got i!

Funny, the first time I said I was ready, I almost threw-up and I had to eat some crackers! LOL! "Fear" was playing with me. But, I threw fear away! It's time and I want it!! When, you get use to something for so long, its' scary taking the next step. Not anymore!!!

Big Hugs!

Saturday, April 2, 2016

Hi Everyone
Hope you're well!
I'll be around soon to visit! I've been very busy for the last few days!
As you can see, new profile pic on the right hand side of my blog. It took a lot for me to put that pic up!

I will tell you why, in the "good old days", I had very thick hair! After, I was sick, I lost a lot of it and my hair became very fine and thin. It didn't bother me that much, but when my new hair growth was lighter and more grey came in, you could really see the area on top of my head more.

The past 3 years, I became crazy over my hair! I was growing it long, to do "the comb" over! And, I started dying my hair almost every month!

As you know, at the beginning of this year, was the start to truly loving me! I haven't coloured my hair since August of 2015 And, I don't know if I will again? We will see what happens. If I do, it won't be to cover up anything! It will be for fun!

I still have my funky hats I wear, but again, it is for fun, not for covering up!

So, I thought, when I show my pic of my hair cut I gave myself, I am not going to cover up the top of my head! This is me! I love me! I am proud of me!
I have to admit, I'm thinking of cutting my hair just a little more!
There is one thing I am working on, and I am really hoping to share it with you, by the end of April!
Big Hugs and remember LOVE YOURSELF!